I would rather believe that you dead then than face the truth that you are still there

you kid me?

you kid me???

this term will soon be over , good thing.

however i wasted too many time and the study has been forgotten for such a long time , the exam will be a big calamity to me 

ORZ  God bless me

BTW,yesterday i got the new number, it went back to 8 , viva!

if you are widering why there is no photo these days

i am so sorry to tell you that my SD-card of my lovely little DC was breaken

now , stand in silent tribute for 3minute

ORZ  God bless us

I've got some unhappy things these days , but also many good things came to me . two men which were so important to me had gone away , one was for his lover and another was reasonless . they would know it was so cruel to me but they didn't care .

soon i'll be on the way home and perhaps could forget what had happened and how sad i am feeling

i should be myself at all , all for myself

there are too many things to find and to be loved , what's mine , will always be mine .

he said to me some days before

meet it but not beg , begged but can't get it , give up it 

just trust him

I find no words to write

this space is all for you but how can I say it to you now ?

back to me ...

please ...

ok , if you want , just as you like , I'm saying it to all:

I love you

I wanna be always by you side

I can do everything you ask

don't leave , please

you know how much I need you

so you a bad man

160,good number but made me sorrow

106,bad number but give me hope

4,beautiful number but please let me go on

 

one plan was defeated

and another will defeat

 

not too bad

yeah~

I had a sleepless night last night. so surprise.

yesterday is a important day but i did nothing for it , perhaps i need to be punished to remember it. but in fact it could not be like that because the one who i should commemorate was so gentle a man . i love your red hair just like others......9years , you had been away for 9years. i do never forget you !

but now i don't know what to say about your stories , the only thing must to say is we now have the same birthay and i will keep it for ever and ever ,i won't tell anyone the truth and soon i am also to forget the truth, my dear...

i fell in the sleep when the darkness went away, i dreamed you delete the QQshow I sent to you , i was so sorry and allmost cried .

i check it up , they say the time limit will be Sep,6th . then , shall we buy a new one ?what do you see?

I started to write the new <A trip of Mr.Goat> in English today. I thought I could but in fact I could not ....

I stopped it .

I'm so sorry...

I'll try to finish it in Chinese...

wait for me!trust me!

I'm back,back again.

I mean we wasted too many things,too much time.I stopped writing in my blog for no reason.we all stopped.

I'm 19years old to the goverment and I can't say that's meaningless.I start to draw the eyebrow with brown pencil and plan to deal my lashes in a few time.I changed and I'm old and will get older.the cosmetic will soon fill up my life no matter if I like,I only gonna be a woman as all the women in the world,nothing different.grown up isn't too terrible to me but getting old is horrific.

after all, I feel good,a lady should be graceful and gentle and bury her sorrow in her lonely soul after dark.smile,smile.wait,wait.

return to my subject,I mean we waste too many things and too much time.I promise I will start my novel ,anyway I like story and always feel good when sb. says good to my story.I will try to write them in english by my best (as I always say).

we are friend?

why not?

P.S:the hurt on my butt was caused by a big stone in the hillside and then the tractor jolted too badly and my butt hurted again.It was a terrible journey.

though I know nobody would read these words , I write them here and for myself.

I do so many thing but he has never cared for.

maybe I always play the walker by the way to every man I care.

but, what else can I do ?

I have no choose and perhaps will always be the one who have no man cares for .

hush a bye

don't cry

be the little baby of myself forever