I've got some unhappy things these days , but also many good things came to me . two men which were so important to me had gone away , one was for his lover and another was reasonless . they would know it was so cruel to me but they didn't care .

soon i'll be on the way home and perhaps could forget what had happened and how sad i am feeling

i should be myself at all , all for myself

there are too many things to find and to be loved , what's mine , will always be mine .

he said to me some days before

meet it but not beg , begged but can't get it , give up it 

just trust him